Friday, August 29, 2008

Rest in Peace Darcy









Brookie's mom took her own life yesterday. My heart is broken for her little girl. How much sadness can one person endure? When I think of the hits this girl took in her life, it seems so unjust. Pain, abuse, addiction, rejection, guilt, loneliness...all one after another, with no real reprieve.

Today I will take her little girl shopping to buy a dress for the funeral. The last thing Darcy bought her were a sweet pair of white dress shoes, so whatever I buy will match them.

I rarely cry...but I will cry for her. It's the least I can fucking do. She deserves that.

...Darcy you know I loved you. Your little girl will grow up knowing about you. I will be honest with her about it all. I will be her mama for you. But I won't let her call me mommy, that was always reserved just for you... Please be at rest, sweet girl. Good bye.

7 comments:

Fusion said...

This made me so sad...
I hate to read about this sort of thing, I can't imagine doing that to a child, but I know depression is a terrible thing to live with, I worry about a friend alot who has it. And owns guns...

Glad you're in Brookie's life Jojo.

gloria said...

good Lord! how unbearably heartbreakingly sad

Roo said...

i'm so sorry joanne.
that is overwelmingly sad.

Anonymous said...

Oh Jo, that breaks my heart.
Thankfully that little girl has you in her life.

it's a gong show... said...

so sorry jo. i don't know what else to say :(

Crystal said...

oh my goodness, this makes me so sad. I am also very thankful that this beautiful girl has you in her life.

so, so sad.

Anonymous said...

Oh man life is soooo tough sometimes...with so little in the way of answers...thinking of you...L-lew